Thanks all of you!!!!!!!!!!!

I am so thankfull for all of your kind words and thoughts. I didn't want you to all think I reached out for your help and then ignored you. I have cried, laughed, cried, cried, cried, laughed, and cussed, and finally slept.

I have tried to get in touch with him but am being ignored. He knows I know and won't give me the respect of venting my anger/hurt to him. PRICK!!!!!!!! Sadly I am one of those people who craves closure.

To all of you wonderfull people, thank you so much for taking time out of your day to send a note along to me. For some reason it does seem to help knowing that you all wish me well.

Lilith~~~ Thank you so much for moving this to the right area....to bad you couldn't do a spell check too. I am hoping my moments of laughter are from your vibes and not insanity!!!

Kleclere~~~ Thank you for your kind words. I sure could use your shoulders, I'm about out of tissue!!!

incitatus~~~ Thank you so much for your kind offer to share your experiance with me. I may take you up on that once I balance out a little bit.

S.R.~~~ You are always there for me!!! I am so sorry it has happened to you as well. Thank you.

Dallas~~~Thank you for your thoughts. I too am glad it didn't go on any longer than it did.

BiSexy~~~ You're a peach!!!!!!!! I'm so glad someone else would have their 'claws' out too. Thanks!

dm383~~~ I cherish your thoughts. You are very, very wonderfull person to put yourself on the line in the eyes of others just to try to make me feel better. I hope it changes nothing for you. I for one think even more of you. You were very noble and I honestly thank you. I am so glad that your life turned out better when at a time it could have been worse.

celtic~~~Thanks for the luck and hugs. Also for the reminder that one day this will be a memory!!!!

Bugsy~~~Thank you so much. I hope that one day I find the happiness you have found.

Oldfart~~~ Could you get to work on that bullshit detector??? I think I could use 2!!!! Thank you so much for your help.

Steph~~~ You had a good idea. I did go for a walk this morning after I put my daughter on the bus and tried to call'him' 20 times. The only bad thing is that once the rage wears off you start to notice how cold it is and how far from the house you are! Next time I'll remember a coat! Thanks (HUGS)

Aqua~~~ I don't think I could tell her. I had my chance yesterday when I called....That part I didn't put in....I had called his house because I couldn't get in touch with him and we were going away for the weekend and I needed some information. I got his 'sister' I told her I was Ron's friend Melissa and was he home. He wasn't and she wanted a message, I told her I just needed some info on what was going on this weekend so I could make plans for it. She said she didn't know Ron had invited another 'couple' and just chatted like we would get to be great friends this weekend. I was a little more than confussed. Then she asked if it was my husband I was bringing, all I could get out was no, I was getting ready to tell her the other person was my daughter when she asked me to let 'their' children think that my b/f and I were married because they tried to shelter them from that sort of thing. Though she had no problem it other than that. Most everything had fallen into place by then and I was about to get ill so I got off the phone after she told me she'd have Ron call me as soon as he got in and she couldn't wait to meet me!!!!!!!! I was about to pass out!

Anyway, after I high-jacked your thank you....sorry, I just don't think I could tell her. She was so sweet when she thought I was just his friend, and you can tell she thinks the sun rises and sets in his eyes......just about like I did....asshole! Anyway, I don't want to hurt her. I guess she'll find out in time.

Thank you, thank you, thank you, for your thoughts and you are so right, if not for a place to vent and kind peole to help me through I might be in Charlotte flattening all his tires! Sorry I ran on again! Thanks so much!!!!!!!!!!!