Honey I feel your pain. I've had a couple of major deceptions since my divorce. One married and the other had a steady the whole 8 months while vowing neverending love (as if). We who trust, we who see the good in people and blindly expect to be treated as we treat others usually get footprints on our backs. Time being the only medicine and being hesitant to trust again is the cost. Trouble is....loving with our whole heart is what we live for. I wish you all the best. I'm sorry it happened to you... I'll keep good thoughts for you. Oh and as for knowing why. Consider this... would knowing why change that it happened? I had a shrink charge me $200/Hr for that little gem. LOL It's yours for free. I hope it'll help you as it did me.

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As to marriage or celibacy, let a man take which course he will. He will be sure to repent - Socrates

Love is not looking in each other's eyes, but looking together in the same direction - Antoine De Saint-Exupery